Unfortunately it rained today and was a high of about 52. It sucked! I was so looking forward to a long run outside with friends to talk to. Well I did talk to friends but I did my 12 miles on the treadmill! I started out walking a lap, then moving up to 15 then 12...and did 12 for a mile. Went to the bathroom twice in the first 2 miles! Then decided I better get serious or I might be there all day to the chagrin of Steve who was at home sleeping with the girls about to wake up any second. So I went my 10:40 like I was supposed to for about 5 miles. I was sweating so bad! I took another bathroom break at this point and was so horrified when I took a look at myself in the mirror. I had two very dark sweat circles on my boobs. And my headlights were fully on. I was so embarrassed! Mortified might be a better word. So I splashed my chest with water to make the sweat more even. I was so wet and cold. When I got back to running I had a mile of stomach and gut cramps. I felt like crap. I tried to go faster. I did my last 3 miles between a 9:14-8:30. (The last mile an 8:30!) So I ended on a good note but wow...it did get a bit long.
Still, every time I run I get a feeling of love for life in that moment. Love for the time I get to veg out and be by myself. Love for the time I get to rock out to my music and visualize myself singing and dancing. Love for my body and how good it feels. Love for the feeling I get that makes me feel on top of the world. I feel loved. Like I am being given a gift of fun, nurturing and relaxing time...all for me.
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